Wednesday, March 13, 2013

No Budge

In the past  I have always been known to lose weight quickly when i put my mind to it but this time it is much tougher than other times.  I have been wheat free for 2 weeks and although the physical evidence is still improving (see above post for improvements) my weight is not budging!  I am stuck at 195-197 and after reviewing my color chart i see a few glitches in my plan! 
I must increase my fruit and veggies and decrease my carbs! 
Having said that I have been doing some reading on calorie intake and how it is not advised to drop them too sharply to maintain a solid weight loss, SO i simply need to do the "calorie shuffle" and try and get one hour of hard exercise in 5-6 days a week!

Now, this is where my heart falls!  More Vegetables and more exercise?  GACK :(
This is always where I give up!  So, what i am trying to do is make it less painful on my body and mind by creating fun and even "hidden" ways to get those two things in full swing!  One way i will include more produce is to PLOW my innards with these horrid icks is with my new frappes!  Every day i plan two of these power packed beverages to be guzzled as to spare myself the yuck of chewing and chewing and chewing!  In the morning and in the afternoon i will get my coda of both food groups without the least bit of horror! 
Exercise wise, i plan on beginning my marathon training for a full run in October and joining a gym and swimming!

Kalappalana Frappe

Kalappalana Frappe
1 large apple
1 med banana
1 cup chopped kale
1 tbsp ground flax seed
3 ice cubes
water just to cover

BLEND till smooth
225 calories

Wednesday, March 6, 2013

Eyes Opening

It has been one week since God helped me turn this reckless train around and the world is looking a little brighter today!  I have eliminated wheat from my diet completely and several of my symptoms are clearing up.
1.  my joint pain is nearly gone
2.  i sleep better and wake up refreshed
3.  my skin is smoother
4.  my eyes are brighter
5.  my hot flashes have diminished
6. i have no more heart racings and feel more at peace
7.  my creativity is creeping back and i can manage my time better
8. i have a desire to be with people
9. i have a happy disposition most of the time
10. i feel hopeful

I did suffer some withdrawal symptoms like severe irritability, restless sleep, headaches and lethargy but they only lasted about 4 days, thankfully.  Day by day i felt my "eyes open wider" and i have NO desire to "fall of the bread wagon" !  (yet)  It amazes me what changes i feel.  I wish i had done this ages ago!  Here is the daily habits i am forming.

1.  I drink at least 2 liters of water a day. 
2.  I am helping out my bowels along with Mettimucil (what a miracle psyllium fiber is!!!)
3.  I am charting caloric intake and having fun with my color code system, not exceeding 1500 calories a day (when i walk/run) and 1200 if i dont.
4.  I consume mainly plant based foods, vegetables, legumes, brown rice, some fruit, healthy yogurt, nuts and seeds, chicken, fish, and beans.
5.  In serious moderation i enjoy oats, corn & corn products, "real" cheese, lean beef, eggs, potatoes, and low fat milk.
6.  I do not eat or drink ANYTHING after 7.
7.  The only fat i use is extra virgin olive oil.
8.  I treat myself with an occasional piece of dark chocolate or a glass or 2 of deep red wine.
9.  I limit myself to 2 cups of coffee a day
10.  I try and walk at least 30 minutes, briskly, a day!

My daily menu looks something like this:
BREAKFAST:
Berry Banana Smoothie:  1 small banana, 1/2 cup frozen berries, 1/2 cup no fat greek yogurt, 1 cup almond milk, dash of vanilla and 1 tbsp ground flax seed)
OR 1 cup of "real" oatmeal porridge with a diced apple and 7 walnut halves, and 1/2 cup milk
(I cheat a BIT here, with 2 tsp of sugar (35 cal) just so i can groan with enjoyment as I eat it) :)
LUNCH:
Vegetable Soup!
SNACKS:
Popcorn (made with 1 tbsp olive oil) no butter or,
Rice Cakes with Salsa or Hummus to dip, or
Veggies and Yogurt dill dip
and i almost always have 10 Almonds!
DINNER:
I eat basically whatever i make the guys.  Lean protein and heaps of veggies.

Things i would like to improve on this week are:
1.  Drink more water (still not happy with my bowels)
2.  Exercise more rigorously and maybe make the work outs 40 min instead of 30
3.  Cut off my intake to nothing after 6 and go to bed earlier

All in all it has been a good week.
weight at the beginning of this blog was 201
today's weight 196.5

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

The Bottom of the Pit

I was sick!
Many would even have medically declared me totally TOXIC.
I had NO energy!
I was lethargic and spent most of my day either in bed or in my recliner.
My joints ached and my muscles groaned with every motion.
I had regular chest pains and found it difficult to breathe.
I had trouble swallowing and my glands in my throat were always sore.
My teeth were slowly vanishing behind my swollen gums that bled.
I itched everywhere from the top of my head to between my toes.
My hair was falling out, my nails were brittle and  my skin dry and patchy.
Hot flashes plagued me all day and severe night sweats kept me tossing and turning each night.
My mouth tasted like tin and my sinuses were packed full every morning.
My bowels were irritated and irregular and my stomach was severely bloated.
When confronted with the smallest stress, my heart would race and i could not cope!
The depression was back.  I cried regularly and even had thoughts of death and how freeing that would be.  I did not want to see anyone, go anywhere or do anything, ever.
I was a prisoner in my own home and my friends and family seemed to have disappeared.
I had just enough move in me to care for my son and my husband.  (I put on a great show for them when they got home, acting as tho all was well to shelter them from the pain i was dying from inside)
I was a mess.
We were going through a horribly painful bankruptcy that stressed me out terribly!
It was an embarrassing thing that i could not talk to anyone about.  In fact i could not talk to anyone about anything!
I felt so alone!
I was physically dying, emotionally void, financially spent, socially dead, creatively empty and spiritually short circuiting!
If something did not change I knew I would not live to see my 50th birthday.

My diet consisted of starch, fat and red meat.  I consumed no produce or whole grains and my coffee, milk, spirits and pop (albeit diet) were the only water intake of the day. Anything i consumed usually 2 meals at 11am and again at 11pm were of massive proportion and i would fall into bed with a thud and most nights wake up with a volcano in my gut!  I consumed up to 6000 calories a day and tipped the scale at a whopping 201 pounds.

I began to dissect my life and analyze who i was.
What was it that was killing me and how would I change my life?
That was me only 2 days ago!
This is where my journey began.